Unbreakable

My eyes are so swollen this morning--I look like I've been in a boxing ring. When I went to bed last night there was nothing left to distract me from this new reality, and the sobs were deep, crushing, and completely involuntary. It felt like my chest could cave in. I haven't eaten since yesterday at 10 till 4, and I don't want to. I am drinking though--half a blueberry pomegranate VFusion was my supper and Caleb made me some apple cider after the kids went to bed. I'm still nursing my morning cup-o-joe. On the list today:

* snuggle with Elsa
* bake two loaves of chocolate chip banana bread (with wheat flour & real butter)
* clean out the inside of my car
* exercise--good for clearing my mind
* laundry--washing, drying, folding & putting away
* clean the bathroom
* Wal Mart trip for Caleb's shop

I'm sure there's much I can keep busy with today. We'll see how much I can actually accomplish. I'm feeling really low, worthless, beaten down...so for today I will focus on the ones I love most. I know I can do that well.